(Re)Discovering Compassion for Myself

Ahhh! I'm on the tightrope teetering between patience with myself and freaking out.

Small me wants to freak out and say "there isn't enough time", "you don't have enough experience", "what is your plan!?!", "are you Sure about that!?!". My Higher Self knows that everything works out the way it should and that I AM Enough Right NOW. But let me tell ya they keep having it out.

After a crazy week of hosting festive friends during holy week I am proud of myself for getting right back on track Monday morning. I woke up at 4 am having a great meditation and I was actually inspired.

I started writing things down. That voice came up again. "This is the time you are supposed to be doing Yoga, not writing!".

Geez, my Gremlins are on a roll, what's the deal!?

That's when I had to say Enough! I don't know what I have been feeding my subconscious, but obviously my Gremlins are feeling really strong and powerful right now, and it's time for them to know, that I do not honor their opinions.

After writing some things out I also realized why I've had an anxious, "not enough" feeling as of late.

Everything I'm attempting is really new to me, and I'm attempting a LOT of new things.

I'm trying on the new hat as being a writer.
I know it came to a shock to me when I realized it myself.
My spelling is not perfect, I think a 1,000 thoughts at once and my sentences get jumbled sometimes and editing? You can forget it!
How can call myself a writer? (This is when my Gremlins were getting some airtime...)

Because right now it's kinda what I like to do! I am managing three different blogs right now and contribute to more than that. I have a list of book ideas that are just sitting around because "I'm not a writer". It's just ridiculous and I'm glad I see that now. There is a way to realize your dream of whatever you want to do. I have a family member who is a fabulous writer. He has no formal education, but know's he's intelligent. He writes from his heart and then hires a college student majoring in journalism to edit his work. Genius.

I'm also trying to become a master youth facilitator, master life coach, learning this guitar, finding my voice, mastering my discipline when it comes to physical fitness and eating to live. The list goes on really.

The point is, I am always evolving and growing and there are a lot of things right now that excite me and that I want to delve into and do a great job at. Instead of being frustrated, anxious and allowing room for those Gremlins to talk smack, I am instead having nothing but compassion for myself and exhibiting patience and I take on these new projects and interests and continue to grow into an ever more rad version of ME!

I invite you to do the same :)

Love and Light!